the feeling when the best class end

the feeling when the best class end


i just finish my communication C class.. forever..
or maybe not, if i failed
it's a class where you hv to hand draw nicely,

accurately, sexy and beautifully..

but this is not life drawing, this is structural hand drawing
basically perspective but free hand
we learnt illustrator n google sketch up too.
i love this class
i consider this as the best class because
i grown up a lot (in skill wise) because of this class.
i'm not a scribbler, not a fans of drawing
dats how bad i am to start this skill from. but now..
i draw like i never ever seen nor tot that i could draw like that!!
well, not as good as the good ones in class though

and my year is one of the year of the superb..
i enjoy to see where to go
have the chance to influence myself by these people
but yet sadly i have to accept a very bad ark all the time
T_T

harsh
but i love it
and i grew up
and dats what i call as a good education!

so, just now was the final test..
they ask you to draw 2 objects in 4 hours
make it as presentable as you could
as commercial as you could
as professional to make it ready to go to client
the second one includes marker rendering

and the power of the adrenaline rush
and the vibe of those brilliant people around
finally made me draw like never ever in my life AGAIN!!
i can even marker render quite well compares to my ever render
it really surprises me badly..
but again.. i'm the worse of all
so i really don't know whether i'll get pass or not

and now that the test just over
i still feeling uneasy
tensed because i'm so tired, adrenaline rush
and scared of the result.
because the class juz now
we literally gave 100% for the final marks

we handed in 70% worth of portfolio
(my work through the semester and hard work of remaking for 3 days)
and 30% worth of test T_T

i feel super uneasy now..
SUPER!!!
and i'm emotional too
because when my tutor gave a final speech
i felt as if my chance to learn more and grow my skill up is ended
time to be independent and study yourself
felt like graduation day
felt like the last day of junior high school
felt like the last day of the high school final exam

some people might feel relieved but i feel like what i explained
because that class was a very important thing for me
it was a very precious time
with precious result
and i can't wait to see how i'll grow even more

and now i still have more and more last minutes work
XD
i'm so screwed..
oh well.. preparing for the more important one is the priority

i've planned to upload my drawings soon
show you how i grew up
show the world what i've been fighting for
and show the public that sometimes
those drawings ugly or pretty
most of the times are skills!! not talent
and that we fight and fight to be able to do so
and it look like a little piece of shit on a piece of common paper
but it's actually worth hundreds of dollars in real life
(only if u did it well =P)
but the point is.. sometimes those ugly scraps are something.

bye bye again communication C
i love the experience Andrew fowkes..
thank you