josh fulfilling his promise (sat 28th june 08)

most of the time josh don't want to go to places that i fancy to go to chillax and walk around
because he's so lazy to do so. and since he promised me that we'll go walk around everywhere
i wanna go after the exams, we finally go to circular quay.

so, i don't really remember what exactly happening that day, but i remember that juz the day before that we had quarrel (hahah.. i'm so forgetful, sorry, and as usual we quarrel n quarrel XD..)

on 27th June,
we had quarrel coz of his "investment" business and there are few unmentioned plan changes therefore i'm the victim again..
so lao ta joshie not really in a good mood but acting like having a good mood + ended mine n his habits + my nono things meets his no no things and these things leads to war..
nearly dump him dat day coz he is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much, but oh well i can't really dump him coz he'll only says "it's all up to you" means if i dump him i kill myself, better get killed rather than killing yourself sometimes..
and that day he choose his "investment" and money rather than me and food..
and after i can't do anything else, i try to find a friend to talk to n this friend actually told me that josh is going to go clubbing with him that nite.. and this is another "untold plans" and i really really really super hate him that day n i decided to walk n walk n walk
(err.. kinda my thing when i'm mad coz previously the only thing that kills my stress or madness is speeding on ice -ice skating- and all my life i love to drive cars n race bikes n been wanting to cruise around to kill my stress)
so dat day -wearing high heels -walk from darling harbour to taylor's square- in a very cold n windy nite.. n i know if u guys wanna say that i'm nuts walking on oxford st alone on friday nite but if i don't do so i'll b nuts for real too..
-actually wanna put pic of the map but i dunno how n josh is playing mahjong now n can't help-
n then i sat there hoping the time run faster n my friend came faster, but stupid windy still call

josh n ask whether he's finished or not. n decided to go for dinner n meet up in pepper lunch george st. so there it goes i walk again.. n on that dinner i asked him whether he wants me as his gf or not n i know he was just saying yes coz he don't wanna makes me sad, n wants me but he dun really wants me ie. he dunno what he wants. but wat can i say? so after that we met our friend n then go home -josh dun feel like clubbing- and at home he asked me to stay over n there it goes again.. it was a romantic nite.. T_T i'm confused too sometimes..

the 28th of june,
(the circular quay day..)
i dun remember wat we did but we went to krispy kreme to hv free 6 donuts dat nite and then we walk to circular quay n then took photos, followed by walking to opera house, educating josh about wats on circular quay, =P . and we walk to the 13th stair of the opera house but it was too low for the view so we walk to the 33th n we stop there n sit.. chat, took photos n that's it.. btw, y 13th n 33th coz they r my fave numbers. =D

so here r the photos..

my cool josh =D


me, taken n directed by josh

tired josh on opera house stairs


the 2 of us with nite city view as background


if any of you guys wanna see the bigger size of the photo just ask me n i'll send u the link n let u see the photos

no-money's 4th month celebration

so, here r the report of 4th month celebration.
sorry that it's a bit late and the next episode of "how the .. josh n me can b together" is not published yet, coz i don't hv much time lately and some posts is coming but still waiting for photos


so, since we only have coins on our pocket, so me n josh spend our day by....

hunting job in bondi junction XD

i know it sound funny, but that's what we did.
the good news is josh got a trial on this friday but me hv not much luck and have to wait..
haiz.. sad..

so, we went from like 12pm till 6pm, and we were quite tired..
and after that we only stayed at home lay down chit chat and watch tv..
we watched "farmer wants a wife", "the f word" and "CSI las vegas"
and then we fell asleep on the sofa for like 30 mins and after that i went home..

photos of the first few hours of the 21st.

to remember the "tragedy" 4 months ago

so.. if you guys wanna know how me n josh started to get close 4 months ago, here's the story..

hmm.. it's all started on my friends' b'day party (gibran & devin) on the 7th of March
josh n his friends knew devin from a class in uni, and i knew devin n gibran from unsw foundation year in syd in 2006.

step 1: me n josh dunno n dun talk to each other b4 a "toilet case" and b4 josh started a conversation in the middle of the party. we didn't talk much in the party

step 2: few days after that i saw him looking left n right on the busy main walkway in front of the school of chemistry building dunno wat to do n where to go, so i say hi n chat n ask for his number n friend's number. not so long i saw gibran on the main walk way so i say hi again n we all hv a long chat in the unibar.

step 3: since we hv each other's number we smses each other quite often, but josh often ask where am i n what am i doing (lame things =P). and we chat on msn too..

step 4: the tragedy 4 months ago on the Friday nite 14th of March.. we haven't eaten till 22 o'clock n he asked me whether i wanna hv dinner with him, so i say "why not?" n then we go to city (coz other places closed already) for dinner @ pepper lunch george st.
after that we dun feel like going home yet, so we continue to hv desert from "Riviera" ice cream shop, take away, and we eat it @ darling harbour. n that cold windy midnite we actually eating ice cream XD we're idiots.. and we keep n chatting till very late..
and we actually go home @ 5 XD
i know it's shocking.. but that's what we did..

after we get together we call this as "the first date" but it wasn't a date i reckon..
according to others josh was interested on me that time but not me..

step 5: after that hangout i feel that josh is a really nice person (got tricked)
so i juz let him stay @ my place rather than going home coz it was very chilly n we all tired already.. (lucky didn't get raped)

step 6: to be continued next week on our 4th months celebration..

hahahahahah ^^

My cinderella shoes

one of the days that i won't forget is the 11th of may,
that very day me n josh were in a happy condition, so we both feeling like having a dimsum
so we both go, but unluckily becoz of some..
misunderstanding in miscommunication = totally wrong disaster..
we had a quarrel that day and coz i had enuf of quarrelling n happy days so here come my habit.. walk away so damn bloody fast to burn my madness out..
but that day there's something wron with my high heels, so after quite a long walk i felt hurt, and i found 4 blisters XD
so after my madness burnt i went back to josh for dimsum, and he's really care about my "injuries" but he dunno how bad yet, but we're still under quarrel, yet he bought me plasters after he forced me to show him the blisters in the restaurant.
n again during the lunch we still in misundertanding mode, so we got into new quarrels.
and after dimsum he was being kind by offering to accompany me looking around to see whether anything i wanna buy or not, n we went to kookai after wandering around,
and we saw this nice ballet shoes, n then josh said dat the shoes is nice, since i need a new flat shoes so he suggest me to buy this 1, but since it's close to $100 i dun wanna buy..
especially within a week my sis is coming with my new ballet shoes from indo.
but he insist me to try it n ask the shop assistant to bring my size, n after he saw it nice, he asked me whether it's nce or not, n then he juz ask the assistant to take the pair, go to cashier and pay it XD
i tot that he went insane.. n then he drag me to the bus stop @ qvb, we were going to star city, n on the bus he rushed me to change my shoes to the new 1, since he rushed me so i juz do it fast.
n after i changed he said something like this, "already got blisters that bad still wanna wear high heels? can not la.. how can you wear high heels for the whole week? especially now u got blisters like that."
n i was sooooooooooooooooooo amazed how caring he is even tho we were on quarrel..
this shoes made me feel like a princess ^^




thank josh for his love n care =D

time to talk bout the dark side..

well, some1 said that my blog is too lovey dovey, now i'll show him how dark is my life in the other side ^^

well, i dunno where to start, since the stories r too long but juz consider i'm a weird person that juz saying points about bitter tastes that i feel (especially) lately.. there r the things that can piss me off like crazy..

so the background is i'm the youngest child of 3 and i got 1 elder sis n 1 elder bro, my sis is 9 years old older than me n my bro is 6 years old older.
my family is a very strict family, well quite a bit of families like this all around asia i know, but the thing is that it really doesn't suits me who is very adventurous, rebellious, not even afraid of things, cold hearted (in some ways), n etc.

the lastest news are...

1. my sis suspicious of a letter that she coincidently found when i ask her to help me find my TFN letter and end up checking about that letter behind me (i dunno when)
   and i think while she's checking she prolly found my photo with my ex in the same place where i put my letters too
   -the letter is a letter of confirmation of free photo shooting appointment -
   and then this leads to..
2. my bro n sis check every single latest photos that i have in my computer
   and this leads to..
   
3. they saw a nude girl on photo shooting from further that josh took (that girl was taking photo with me on the same day) and they thought that it was me.
   leads to..
   
4. they saw all of my photos of my activities with my friends and josh.
   (i don't really tell em about josh coz i consider our relationship is not that stabil yet and i'm type of person that don't want my family know bout my bf if the relationship is not very serious yet coz i don't want to have any cnflict or watsoever and since both of my relationships are very complicated i don't wanna get bother to talk about each of it)
   and leads to..
5. they tell my mom that i got a bf..
   (i consider this as they don't respect my way of living and my decisions)
   i end up telling my mom bout him juz now, coz i actually also been wanting to tell my mom bout my bf..
   
6. today my bro basically ask me to introduce him all of my friends that i mostly hang around with since my sis consider that my friends are bad people..
   (if u find this thing is normal then i can say nothing)
7. at home my sis treatin me like a stranger, she don't even wanna wash my dishes even tho we were having dinner or lunch together, and do all of these such a thing around kitchen, while even at josh's place friends or me, wouldn't even matter if we ask each other to help to wash dishes.
   well the craziest part is few days ago is when i cooked curry, i didn't do much that day coz i wanna cook curry for her n for me to practice cooking, and after cooking i hv to rush to go for movie with josh n friends. before cooking i went around josh's place to buy some ingredients to cook, n then juz spent time with josh first co if i go home n cook then wouldn't hv time at all to c josh, so after seein josh i made my self go home just to cook for my sis, n then i go to movie rite after i finish cooking and only eating very tiny bit. since the curry doesn't taste good so i said tthat i'll try to fix it tmr, n then after movie i go to sleep straight away, n the next morning i go with josh again from early in the morning, n that nite i find out that she didn't even touch the curry to put it into the fridge, coz she think that it's my job to do so.. n i dun even feel like doing anything towards it till today, coz it's a bit too much for me..
   things like these happens all the time..
8. luckily the next news is better.. i forgot wat else is happening.. XD coz i'm so pissed already..

there r still quite a bit of crazy stuff happens on the past but lets juz see the present n forget about the past..
hopefully this post refresh your mood in readin this lovey dovey blog a bit..
coz we got bitter things here now..

and the lovely part out of the house on 5th July..

today josh i back to syd ^^ so i cook, and i made the "Cleaning for Josh" series to the finale!!
all quite perfect.. however i'm lazy today but i managed to get things done nicely for josh.

btw, i cooked telur balado and ayam goreng kuning ^^
finally the ayam goreng is quite good this time.. and josh quite like the telur balado but he don't really like the sambal balado itself..
and we had those dishes with chicken rice from delicious restaurant and jasmine milk tea from easy way =D

the bad things out of cooking this time is the splashing oil T_T this time really bad..
and it goes all over me AND MY FACE!! >.< first time ever.. n i got burn mark T_T
and i'm lazy to wash the pan n stuff XD
but i'll wash it tmr morning ^^

so after cooking done Josh finally come back ^^ he missed me!! (surprisingly..)
and i miss him more than wat i tot i am ^^
and he haven't been shaving for 5 days T_T n i feel that he look different and sound different.
the thing that i realise this time is that our relationship is quite mature..
especially i compare how i react and loving towards how i did it last time..
i love this relationship with Josh, i love Josh too of course ^^
and SURPRISINGLY AGAIN this is the first time i feel how josh loves me sooooooooooooooo bloody much and i can feel that he miss me sooooo much ^^
if u ask him then i believe he'll say he don't know, but i can feel it
and i'm VERY SUPER DUPER happy about it..
and these what makes me realise what is the real loving relationship is, and it's not worth to think or wat so eva about my past relationship.
i'm very very very very very very glad to met Josh and being his gf.

Thank god i'm here rite now and i'm in this kind of situation watever it is rite now..
bless me n josh to be together as long as possible ^^

the incredibly funny lazy day @ home

Last nite (4^th july) started from happy moments when I reached home, coz my sis washed the clothes already =D

and then we saw “parade” in front of our house.

And another “parade”.. XD
I’ll show you the picture at the end of this post with detail story

but then the sad moment is my computer suddenly dead >.<>

I dunno wat happened, n even tho I try to restart it still not working >.<>

and then today (5th july) me n my sis talk bout few stupid stuff, but I only few funny parts that I’ll put here (might not sound funny coz it’s indo thingy, and u prolly dun understand coz u wouldn’t know the whole story..)

She said “sirkus di soel” instead of “cirque du soleil” >.<>.<>.<

And after my sis “make things neat” I actually find out how look a like is my child to me =D
here’s the photos..

my child really look like me, rite?? =D

so this last pic is the "parade" hahahaha.. it's a dinosaurs!! the funny part is the driver of the escort behind this "creature. he waved to the apartments >.<
and since me n my sis were taking photos and looking at it so antusiastically so he become more condident too >.<

what is windy doing today??

today I’m (feeling like) forgotten by Josh T_T
oh well.. he have fun up there in Gold coast.
ow yea, I hvn’t told that josh’ve been away since the 1st july to Brisbane to attend the MSO (some Malaysian society) sport competition.
So yea here I am alone in Sydney.. since heman is up there with josh, yaya, lionel, horlix, oak, etc back to their hometown
Still got few friends here but can’t really hangout with em.. trying to manage my time too but in a way I’m also lazy to manage T_T
Not like I’m lazy to go with em, but juz lazy bout myself.. even lazy to wake up T_T

So, What is windy young doing today??
Let’s see..

• being lazy to wake up early
• planned to play bball with dick n friends in Ceantral but cancelled coz of the rain T_T
• lazy to cook for lunch, end up eating indomie soto mie, dunno y lately i'm crazy for indomie
• lazy to cook for dinner
• go to Josh's place to wash his bed sheets n etc, took the dry curtain from the laundry hanger, vacuum the apartment, made his wardrobe neat
  basically being his maid while he's away T_T
• going to have dinner at home, i asked my sis to cook me bolognese pasta
• going to wash my clothes at home too coz i'm running out of panties
  
• will end the day with online or blogging again T_T
  btw, this blog often get error on my comp.. so dodgy..

so yea.. dats my day today >.< so sad..

Waiting for 5 hours

today (3rd July) i got locked out of Josh's place with Mahendra (yaya's bro)
we were so idiotic today, but we managed to wait calmly in front of the lift to wait for our neighbour to come home and let us jump to our balcony through theirs.

and unluckily at first the neighbour didn't allow us to do so
but after a while and after few effort she finally let us to.

i'm too tired to tell all the details now, and basically today i got locked >.<
for 5 hours.. and i still hv to wash king Josh's curtain

lucky josh is not going back to my ^^

22june08

Today I just remember that people are gong back to their hometown soon, and just realize how lonely I will b if josh is going too >.<
I must b dunno where to go and even if I go to city must b soooo bored..
lucky he’s not going back, but he’ll go travel for like 10 days tho.. but I think that’s still easier to handle..
ow n I just realize how click we are.. specially lately..
for example.. today suddenly I wanna go dinner to the Mongolian restaurant that me n josh usually go to around the china town. While actually I dun really hv time to do such a fancy thing since I hv to review for my exam tmr.
and actually I find out that he went to china town too for his fave dumpling & noodle resto, n we went @ a similar time, n eating on the same time range n the restaurants only 1 block away

haiz.. omg josh.. love you so much!!!!
^^

3rd MONTH CELEBRATION!!! ^^

21^st june 08

today is me & josh’s 3 months celebration.. I’m so glad that we finally can be together for 3 months.. since I doubt it, a bit..

and I reckon today is the most perfect day I’ve ever had, coz i got tears, quite crazy quarrel, big laughs, sad, mad, fun, serious, rushed, romance, n etc..

and here is the detail about that day, the story goes..

I tried to start the day for me and josh a bit early today, but I couldn’t find an excuse to tell my sis for me to get going by 7 in the morning.. so I go to josh’s place a bit later that what I told him a night before, n then I felt like wearing a dress today, but there r no stylish dress which is warm enough for that cold day.. So I wear the only warmest stylish dress I have with thick white knit pantyhose and my “new” high heels, and covered with a thin white coat and my beloved blue woolen hat.

Geared up by my cheapy huge “burberry” bag (I mean fake of course~~) and my coolest ever oakley dart.

Unluckily we didn’t take photos today T_T..

so after I make my look (which is accidentally looking a bit too formal) I go to josh’s place n then I walk so confidently with my Oakley dart..
and when I just reached josh’s apartment’s door and call him to open the door, suddenly this 1 old man (real old I mean like grandpa) come to me and says,
“hi, u remember me?”
me : “no”
(in my mind): “how can I, I dun even know you”

Old man: I’m blablabla (I dun even remember) the singer,
- shake my hand and kiss my cheek left n right in the France
(ham sap) way -
you’re looking beautiful today..

me: thank you

Old man: I’ve seen you quite often around here, and today I’m telling myself to
talk to you.

Me: ow..
old man: so what is your name?
Me: windy

old man: may I have your number?

(and then josh finally pick up his phone)

Me: No, sorry (smile)
(towards the phone) josh.. could you please open the door?

josh on phone: where r u?

old man: okay then, see you later. (n then kiss my cheek hamsaply again)

me: *nod* (towards the old man) while..
*on the phone* I’m down stairs

n then I got up to josh’s room.. n I was VERY surprised that for the first time josh do something special for me.. he already arranged 3 dolls (2 med size winnie the pooh and mickey mouse, and 1 small Winnie) facing towards the door.

These dolls are from Galaxy world’s doll catcher machine!!
that’s why it is special, coz it is hard to get.

so when I walked in, those 3 cuties are looking like smiling to welcome me..
and as the background I saw joshy walking faster towards his bed smiling and acting so “malu-malu” in his bed facing back at me.

I was happy but still pissed by the old man..
so I was happy, but after a while I put my pissed face on again..
so after that josh ask, “why your face is not happy?”

So I told him all n the reason why I’m pissed by that old man..

after this case done..

I’m feeling so loved by josh that day ^^ coz usually he probably will mad if I’m not looking happy on the happy day like that.. but today he was actually very nice towards me =P

n after a while, josh finally says.. lets go to city and shop!
I was so happy (coz dat day we didn’t have any plan) and josh rarely ask me to go out.
so after he was ready to go, and I was SOOOOOOOO shocked that he wear his long sleeves shirt!!
(he said he wore that coz I’m wearing a dress, so he gotta look smart too..)
while actually, usually no matter how smart I wear, he’ll still wear his ah-beng style..
so dat day we start from martin’s place coz josh wanna go check Tiffany n co. and wanna accompany me look around emporio Armani (only look around for the design sake and check a pair of shoes’ price that I won’t buy anyway)

in Tiffany, he force me to look around and help him pick a bracelet for somebody which I dunno, while he keep on going round and round and round the tiffany, I was getting a bit pissed coz I planned to spread resumes around on the way, n of coz I get more pissed since he couldn’t make up his mind n keep on asking me about jewellery shopping –which is 1 of the thing that can gives me headache-
why??
coz I dun like to shop when I don’t see something that is affordable, nice, and the biggest thing is I don’t need it either..

so josh end up pissed coz he felt that I rushed him around on his “rare” shopping mood. n then we get into quarrel on the way from tiffany to fcuk – josh wanna buy the jacket that he’ve been targeting- and then just before we get into the fcuk, we talk to finish out quarrel on the bench infront of fcuk pitt st.
and the quarrel finally stopped, n then I said sorry in the fcuk, n we already hug n hold hands again in the fcuk >.<>

After that I encourage josh to go back to tiffany to continue his “shopping”
n then after all done in tiffany we walk to shops around pitt st. and king st.
today we surf around the “sky high” brands.. no cheappy shops..
I also dunno why.. josh dragged me..

n then after all the window shopping, we go to have dinner in wagamama in TGV.
he had and I had yaki udon with apple & manggo juice

after enjoying the nice dinner, we continue walking to Galaxy world to check whether there r some other nice dolls to catch ;P and didn’t find nice ones and found joshy’s new “doll catcher friend” instead..
so we continue walk to Capitol square to play the doll catcher machine like crazy.. in total we spent AU$150, but it worth the fun that we had n it fulfill the great day with laughter.. in return, we got the whole big fcuk bag of dolls!!

after all the fun, we got romance at home where both of us feel the love so strong today. no matter what happened this is us.. loving each other..
(well, that’s from my side.. josh must b says “I never say that I love u”)
=P
and that’s josh.. never love me but yet I feel the love..
thanks for everything josh.. and thanks for everything god..
and thank u for reading this damn bloody long post.

good day all folks!!

Shopping Spree on Sale Time!!

7-9th and 11-12th June

since Josh said that my wardrobe need to be totally changed (i mean wats inside the wardrobe) and i do feel that i need more shopping spree of dresses, high heels, hats, and etc..

SOO~~~ HERE WE GO SHOPPING ON HOLIDAY TIME!!! ^^


while people are busy preparing their exam, i'm free on holz already, and i really wanna shop!
luckily, this time god really let my wish came true..
IT'S SALE!! IT'S HOLIDAY!! AND I WANNA SHOP!!
so i go by myself shopping to eastgarden on the 7th and go to every shop that i'm interested in.. at the end i bought 1 pair of boots, 1 dress and 1 vest from portmans and 1 "inner me" =P
i was so happy coz it's all cheap..


and then the next day n 8th i go to shop in city, this time with my sis..
started from david jones, and continued to pitt st.
she browsed around the pitt st. shopping arcade to see whether she can find portmans that is as cheap and nice as what i got the other day or not. and she can't find it.
she looked for cheap flat shoes too and can't find her size.
we also look around cool shops that i never been to
(seriously never ever shop or even window shopping around the pitt st. before >.<>
and then my sis bought a wallet from the strandbags on The Strand
on the pitt st. during our lunch break, i saw a tall girl with bob hair wearing black shorts, over-sized look suit, with white long sleeves shirt in it, black bow tie, and red shawl put nicely on her shoulders. it's the 40's - 50's formal guy look that the guy prolly hv cigar in his mouth, but this girl really transform it well to be wearable on girls!!
Damn Bloody cool!!! haiz.. i hope that i'm as tall as her and i can wear like that..
i can't wear bow tie that's the thing! coz it will make me look like a lil lolita doll! ><>
followed by Supre next.. i bought 1 training pants and 1 head band that i've been wanting since 2006 ;D..
i was about to buy a cotton dress too but i wasn't sure whether i can wear t with my other dress as an inner or not, and the cotton material wasn't that good, so i postpone it n planning to b back soon.
continued by going through the tunnel from myer to the QVB..
and we found "Wanted" shoes shop, and here we go again browsing and browsing cheap shoes.. the shoes that i want is only $30!!
so on the 8th: 2 pairs of knee-high socks, 2 pairs of pantyhose (1dark brown, 1 white knit),
1 training pants, 1 headband
XD


So, on the 9th i go again with yaya to accompany her to shop, since i informed her about the cheap pantyhoses in Myer and stuffs, and i wanna ask her whether the shoes that i wanna buy is considered as comfortable to wear and super worth to buy.
so she confirmed that the shoes is comfortable and i bought it! =P
and then we go browse around the QVB.
we also stop by the supre again to see the cotton dress that i'm targeting on, this time i wear the dress that i wanna wear with that supre dress, and it quite works, but oh well.. my size gone already >.< it is completely not for me..

The shopping spree paused on the 10th but since my sis really think twice about the cheap shoes on the "Wanted" so..

on the 11th we go again!!!
this time we bought 4 Pairs of shoes!!! hahahahha...
first time ever we look like princesses shopping for shoes..
i bought 1 pair and she bought 3 pairs.
and then n the way back i found TIES!!!! SKINNY TIES!! YES THE VERY SKINNY ONE!!
they are so pretty >.< so i bought 2 of em ^^ i love em so much!!..

Dats my sis holding 2 big paper bags full of shoes

on the 12th i hang around again to browse some "inner me" and i bought 2 =P

so that's my shopping spree =D