staring at my cutie josh =P

don't you think josh is very cute???

i found it that way ^^

he's sleeping like a lil kid that hugs his fave smelly pillow
or his fave smelly stuffed animal..
looking so pure and cute ^^

i always think that the moment when u sleep shows the very real you..
me n josh does think that the cutest person is the 1 whom would still look cute when they are sleeping
there are some people that look angry when they sleep..
i like to observe sleeping people.. ^^
it's like seeing a person deep inside, see the baby side of them..
seeing the root of every attitude of them..


talking bout sleeping.. dunno y i dun feel like sleeping tonite..

unsw turned redish purplish pinkish!!!!

i dunno why but tonite unsw look so gay..
i dun hv the pic but i'll see if i can take it tmr or sumthin..
i dunno how long will this happening for but my campus really look weird with all of the red street-lights and red purplish light beam on the campus' icon buildings..
dude i need to take the photo of this disgusting thing!!
so yea wait for it!!

*edit*

photo came!!
(from unsw webpage)

the main walkway

the scientia

(from my own camera)

the main walkway

don't u think it's sooooooooo looking like a red light district instead of a uni??

6 months (21 september 08)

this time i give the plan responsibilities to josh
since he barely plan for our celebrations
and as what i heard before he has prepared something a bit exclusive for me for the 20th nite. he told me around 1 month ago that he has
confirmed that everything will goes smooth coz he tackled it all
(i won't tell the present to u guys, sorry.. coz i can't)

so, on the very day he was like so casual as if the thing is not going on
and he still go play bball, korean fest, market city etc etc.. and i was like~
"josh u really wanna cancel the plan ya?"
and however at the end he told me that he hasn't tackled it yet (T_T)
i'm so darn pissed that i trusted him for this long for every single thing
and that day was the peak of the very knowledge that he has been ignoring me and juz say yes~ yes~ and yes~
and bullshit and bullshit and another bullshit

so there i goes.. cry coz i was so darn pissed..
i've been hoping that he'll take that day very special and seriously
but he didn't and at the end i forgive him coz he said that he'll plan something for tmr and makes me happy, so on sunday 21st he say wanna go eat cheappy steak in the city @ 3pm
followed by ice cream in passionflower, and prolly watch movie if does have good movie
and then he wanna go SC..

plan is just a plan and the fact goes~~~~
he still wanna watch his drama series and play "the biggest brain" in the fb and we end up had instant noodle as lunch and not going yet @ 3
( T_T!!! ) wanna slap him rite??
so we went to city around 4 i think, and then we did get 1 steak to share in scruffy murffy's
or what ever it is called that i never remember how to spell it
and keep on calling it schuffy muffy's
T_T i know i sound idiot.. josh laughed at me enuf.. so dun laugh..

after the steak we did went for ice cream and since there are no nice movies
he decided to go to SC after that.. and the long old stories goes again..
the greedy lil kuso otoko joshie went out of the limit and kill himself in SC
and there i goes again coz i dun like the way he play i'm pissed again
isn't that such a special celebration day??? ( ~T_T~ )

so i still forgive him coz after that he's willing to accompany me watch
"my boss my hero" as what he said
since i tot at least he did 1 thing as what he has promised me..
and there he goes again only accompany me not even half of the episode and he went to the living room
to watch his hongky drama for the next 3 hours.. T_T isn't he so lovely??
where about in the world can u be so lucky to find such a bf
if not in Syd or KL??
so there i goes again darn pissed and cried coz he keep on bullshiting
for the whole 2 days of our 6 months celebration weekends..
he promised me things but he didn't do any..
what else that can hurt girls the most if not lies and bullshit?

so yea, that's our 6months celebration T_T so glamourous rite??
full of drama.. i think we can make series already..

and the only good news i have is that we had a deal for this very day that from now on he only smoke max of 4 cigs..
but he smoked 5 cigs on the 21st T_T
luckily till now he really only smoke 4 max a day..
hopefully he'll keep it up.. after few months i'll cut it again =P

so there goes my 6 months with josh~~~~

just now

ok, just few minutes from last report but i have another story to tell already..
so now i'm in my design communication comp lab that i'm so suck in..
and the story is.. after i got the shoes from amanda i went to buy banana up the stairs from amanda's faculty and after that i run down the stairs and TA-DA!..
my skirt blown by the wind T_T
obviously everyone that is hiking the stairs will b able to c clearly
since i'm going down..
now it really prove that my skirts from indo can't be wear in oz
and will remain in indo from my upcoming holz..
and i didn't hv short skirt coz my sis didn't allow me to buy supre's jeans mini skirt and now if she dun like it then i'll buy a very darn short jeans (pants)!! coz i darn need sumthin darn short coz the weather is darn hot to wear long jeans!!!!
and i dun hv much shorts that can goes with any shoes or any shirt..
for the sake of no sound and bad comments from mr.J
i hv to hv sumthin that looks good T_T
from today i'll wear my dresses, shorts and skirts only..
coz sydney become quite hot lately.. the wind still strong sumtimes but over all HOT!!..

there goes my 2nd report today..
lets continue the AutoCAD..
ciao!

in my comp lab M020

i'm doing statistics now but i hate using computer so i end up doing

things like this in the internet..

report from the class..

so, since as i think that the class is not effective and asking the students being too independent in doing tasks students become lazy and not interested

coz they dun really know what the hell is that tasks..

so, the result of this matter is that 1/5 of the class now gone XD

they dun come to the lab! and i'm 1 of em sometimes..

but seriously from full house to 1 full row of 10 comps empty..

errr.. i was about to tell something else but now i forgot since i've been doing my work just now..

so yea i gtg now.. get shoes from amanda chin and go to next class..

n it's comp lab again T_T

i hate computers!!!!

gimme comments

so i had a problem lately.. i've been staying at josh's place for a month..
it's because of i'm not feeling comfortable at home anymore,
coz my sis is living with me and she've been always act as my parents (not only since she's in sydney)
2 years ago she can force my mom to only send me $400 for my monthly cost
and this time since i hvn't been sleeping at home for so long she stop my monthly money again

and not only that, the most annoying thing is that she dun really talk with me at home and so county in house work etc.. i dunno how to explain, basically she has a not friendly attitude that's wat i feel..
now i know why 2 years ago my host where giving me notice when i didn't talk and socializing much with her during my homestay.. IT IS DANG WEIRD IF ONLY 2 PEEPZ LIVING TOGETHER BUT NOT EVEN TALKING AND SOCIALIZING MUCH!!!
i've tried to talk very nicely but she always only reply with few words in a flat tone or offensive tone..

the worse part is that my sis did a very bad thing that i've tried to forgive but i still can't and however i'll just tell u the detail..

so, once upon a time when i juz got home they (my bro n my sis) ask me sumthin about 1 of my photo in my F*ING computer!!!! YES!! MY COMPUTER!! THEY CHECK OUT MY PHOTOS ALL OF EM!! isn't that nice? i'm sure it wasn't my bro's work, coz he never care much n dun breach people's privacy and the thing that i hate is that.. NOT EVEN MY PARENTS DO SUCH A THING BEFORE!!
after that case i've tried to b a good girl and follow what she wants but until 1 point that she did sumthin again and then i still try to be nice but not that nice anymore and she have that attitude going at home (dun really talk, live as if we're flat mates not family) and i CAN'T TAKE IT!!!
NO!!!! NNNNNN----OOOOOO!!!!!! IT'S FEELING SO WEIRD!!!!

i know she started to act not nice like that since on the holiday that i stayed at josh's place once or twice and didn't follow the rule, but seriously!!! why the hell do you think i would rebel to be allowed to go study in syd ASAP for???!! definitely coz i can't stand my strict family!
and she's giving that kind of family here in sydney??!!!! dang u!!!!

and coz since she's the 1 who pay my uni fee from now on, she won't gimme the uni fee till i:
- stay in my place
- max of 3 days staying out no matter for work or for josh
- everyday even weekend can't go home later than 12..

the thing is.. if i do so equals to:
- can't control josh going to SC
- can't see josh much coz i only can see him from around 6.30 (caused by the uni schedule)
- i dun hv much privacy!! = gotta blog very late when she's asleep
- i dun feel comfortable live with a zombie..
- etc etc.. which i also dun really clear coz my brain really tensed now..
i think it's even shrink ady!!

so yea, since i know some of you guys has younger siblings so please say sumthin,
but seriously i've been thinking to find my own way to pay my uni fee coz i dun wanna follow the stupid rules.. i didn't had my teenage time and now i wanna be free living my uni life while learning to b an adult..

2 days cheerleading..

this time i'm juz tellin what i've been doing yesterday and today..

so yesterday.. i woke up very late since i juz slept at 6am coz of sumthin..
rite after i woke up i get ready, eat n revise my presentation for my class @2pm
+
rush to uni coz i dun wanna b late for this presentation
{and the presentation in postponed again T_T i've been postponed twice coz of my group's mistake but this time is coz of my teacher's mistake.. lucky this teacher is very very easy going and fun (u know american..)}
but he's very very very nice..
+
continue to bridge making out of paddle pop's sticks..
believe it or not but we struggle to find the way to make a construction for the whole 3 hours!!
i think this assignment is dang hard.. and it's 25%!!!

Lucky thing of the day!!!!
this time is that I GOT A NICE GROUP (for bridge making project)!! finally!!

i had 2 bitchy peepz in 3 prev groups and the last one was the worse coz both of the bitches was in a group with me!!
so this time i mingle with new peepz and they are dang nice!!!!!!!!
effective work, respectful, brainy and wise..
and surprisingly 1 of my team mates this time told me that she was having the similar situation as mine previously with 1 of the bitch that i delt with..
so yea, we're in the same boat..

+ (the packed day sontinued)

after i finish class @ 4.50 josh pick me up using his bike to get me home faster coz...
we got bball at moore park straight after we change clothes and shoes

+

cheering josh "go fat boy! go fat boy! you can do it! you can do it!" while he's cycling and i had a free ride on the back rack =P
to help him to burn his fat tummy i help to give extra massage to help fat burning more focused on the tummy.. while keep on frightening him about he'll get a bigger ass from cycling.. =P

+
play bball from around 5.20 to 7
n then wait for a friend to find his bball in the dark @_@ till 7.30

+
ride back home, i had teh tarik down the apartment josh had easy way milk tea,
had a bath, run to dinner with li ying and shumin n friends
went to city from 7.50 get there 8.20 T_T so damn late.. the dinner was suppose to b at 8

the funny thing is that on the last few metres near the house he had to hike a bit and he end up cheer himself "go fat boy!"
LOL~~~~~ finally he admit that he's a fat boy..

+
josh go to his very city

+
go home and watch movie till dang sleepy

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continued to today..
woke up quite early (since we slept dang late) @ 11.30

had quiche, cupcakes and yoghurt for breakfast while watch drama
and then we decided to cycle to maroubra beach for fish and chips as lunch
on the way there we really enjoy the hot weather with nice breeze and the flying feeling of taking a slope down hill with beach view on the front.. it felt like flying down to the beach
and obviously i still cheering josh on the bike..

when we got there we also enjoyed the cheerful atmosphere of the dogs world while we ate
there were heaps of dogs around..
and then we played a bit on the beach n get a bit sandy =P
when the sun sets we cycle back and had a bit of snack of sweet drinks from McD in maroubra junction which made us feeling full n didn't had a dinner..

the good news s that today the fat boy Josh had cycle in total of 3hours!!
and most are uphills..
so congratz to the fatty.. and hopefully he'll lose his bag on the tummy soon..

but seriously even till now he keep on eating fat stuffs.. i dun think the cycling works..
>.<

jon fell asleep coz of me..

hahahhahaha.. i think malaysians are rarely talking for so long on phone..
and juz now i was talking to jon wong and he was like having a cold or sumthin n not in a good mood but he still talk to me till my credit off.. and then we continue talking online on skype and i think he fell asleep!! =P

sorry jon.. u not suppose to b that nice to me.. u suppose to say that u wanna go to sleep n talk to me some other time =D

however, thx to jon for that.. and sorry for the bother..

MSO junkyard sale..

so yesterday i had junkyard sale from 4-9.. i got my own stall..
felt so weird staying there by myself and have no one i know..
it was quite cold and windy since the sun set and i was freezing T_T
i didn't wear thick coz it was a quite warm n sunny day..
so let the pic talk first..

yup that's me in my stall..

and i saw li ying there too!! so happy that she came.. even tho only for a while..
she also suggested me to buy cupcakes that ivory & co. sold in that event at the end of the event..
and i did got a good deal..
well normal price was 4 tiny cupcakes for $5 (if i'm not wronf as wat li ying told me)
and then when i bought it they gimme 12 tiny for $5
and then since i like the orange flavour (the one that most peepz dun like n left the most)
i bought some more for $10 and i ask them to gimme a lot a lot for 10 dollars..
so since they wanna get rid off the orange flavoured.. they gimme all of the orange flavour cupcakes that they have that time.. and it was a LOT!!! and after i got home and i count it there was actually 45 cupcakes for $10!!!
OMG DANG HAPPY!!!!! was like keep on thanking them for giving me so much cupcakes..
=P
so yea liying.. please dun be jealous.. i still hv a lot now i can share it with u =D
so yea.. Thx ivory & co.!!~

so at the end of the event after i packed up my stuff (no one bought my thing) and bought lots of cupcakes i packed up all of the balloons that left and bring em home =P
so here r my balloons on top of my room..

P.S.: i took 2 secondhand adidas shoes from amanda chin =P 1 blue n 1 white+pink
the blue for free and the white+pink for $15.. (going to take it tmr)

story of cheong ho in a dinner..

usually cheong ho is the 1 that make stories out of people's picture.. so this time is my turn since i took funny pics of him..

once upon a dinner.. cheong ho was listening to Mr. J and Mr. A's conversation
while Ms. W busy taking pic..

Mr. CH: *looking and listening to Mr.J*

Mr. CH: *looking and listening to Mr.A*

"haiz, i dun understand la.. better get to know to this thing"
"hey pretty, how r u tonite?"

"hmm.. u did manicure and pedicure aye?? nice and shiny.. not bad.."
"can u help me get mani pedi too?"

i know it's not that funny but at least i've tried =P

my first spicy first meal..

as i remember i never eat spicy thing as my first meal
and rarely eat spicy foods since i dun like spicy..
but today i have to bare it.. T_T
i have to go to uni this morning like around 7 and continue do my work..
and i go to uni is simply to copy my drawing.. but the copier all out of service T_T
so me n a friend gotta go to a copier shop near uni, and after that i felt really hungry so i start to think what to eat.. since i'm so close to McD and oporto ady, i decided to take oporto coz i feel that it's healthier..
i'm really concern about my breakfast.. coz that what will be totally digested and the main fuel of ur body for the whole day.. so there i go, had triple bondi burger for take away.
and i walk back to uni to do my work..
rite after i got to uni i think twice whether i should eat or not, coz i'm afraid that i'll make my drawing dirty..
but since i'm so hungry so i decided to eat
when i open the burger and i saw a redish colour sauce i was like "ow ow..." (@_@)


the girl in oporto asked me whether i want chilli sauce or not but i said no!...
since i'm too hungry and i think that westerner's chilli won't b that spicy so i ate it..
a bit spicy for me but i still can handle and managed to eat it all but yea.. another experience when you hv to live by urself in some other country..
lucky i didn't hv stomach ache and 'fell in love' with the toilet for the whole day coz of that chilli sauce..

ow, n my previous assignment for isometric got 8!! =P happy happy..
distiction for ides communication come to me please!!!!! =D
i'll update about my isometric and the picture of my model... surprisingly my model got 8 too =P
i tot got 6 or 7 only.. now i'm more confident in getting D or HD!!

my look after a sleepless nite of dilemma in work..

wat i see from the bus today..

juz now i saw 4 OLSH girls lounging on the pavement using their bags for pillow..
i think they were waiting for a bus..
it reminds me to the time when i was having a test somewhere for high school Olympics with my friends.. and we were waiting for so long till we all slept on the floor and use bags as pillow and some of us read comics..
i miss those crazy stupid and whatever attitude in school..
in uni we still hv some of the attitude but it's juz not like when we were in school..
and in some offices also very fun and hv the crazy odd things around but still it's not the same to kids..

lately when i hv to change to be an adult i'm feeling sick of the adult world..
i feel that they r dirty, filthy, bad, etc.. basically i describe it as a bitchy world..
but i'm wondering how those wise wise people can survive and be that cool..
why should we all be an adult anyway.. isn't the innocent kid life better?


imagine the world of kids.. they dun think bad, they imaginative, forgiveful, juz simple and straight.. their won't stab each other..
haiz.. what if and what if the world is as innocent as kids..
not saying that peace will b there, coz kids are messy and so much bother but at least the innocence is there.. the people are generous, kind and things like that..



btw.. talking about bitcy world..
DON'T BELIEVE IN GIRL'S FRIENDSHIP!!!
THEY ARE TRUE BITCHES!!
only some girls are nice, like 1 out of 10 prolly.. however, it is hard for me to find a nice girl friends tho.. so yea, good luck..

miss my b'day cake..

i just look at my friend's b'day bash and the moment when he cut his cake..
i remember the last time i had fun on my b'day was 2 years ago..
when i was surprised that my foundation year friends planned a bash for me and a cake while actually they juz know me for 2 months. that b'day is quite fun, and i did my trademark again..
(more info on the next paragraph)

on my 17th and 1 week and i still had party for my b'day (i had few parties that time XD but only hv cake on this 1)
i establish my very trademark.. to stab the cake!! this is the thing that i missed rite now.. i had good times but hv no photo at all.. the video that i took also accidently cut T_T

my 19th b'day is such a sad case..
no people at home coz my parents went to sydney for my bro n sis's graduation. so i was only with my maid and none of my friends had time to see me T_T)
but i did had a cake from 2 of my besties and presents.. so yea, i ate my cake myself n that's all

my b'day this year my bro forgot to wish me b'day to me, hv no close friends, no cake, and only celebrate it on dinner with 3 new friends.. i feel that it's a bit sad..
but i was quite happy with my special present..
Mr. JLHY and present from my mom (my pretty bag)
i was happy n glad with the dinner, but it' not perfect without close friends like catherine that will always give me sweet surprises, winnie that will help catherine work the surprise, surprisingly wiwin n lena is in my list now.. coz they r so loud.. n makes the atmosphere more lively.. n other karunian friends.. they r my life.. probably i'm not that close to all of you guys but in my heart you guys are sumthin.. filling my lonely life..

ow, so and about celebrating with cakes and my mom.. i really remember when my mom let be buy the whole big chunk of opera cake in borobudur hotel (my fave opera cake) and i finish the whole chunk myself till i brought it to school for break =P
another anchor is when i cried when my mom bought me a lemon cake that i've been wanting when i was 15. that wasn't tears of joy btw..
it was becoz i want to go to ice skating and my mom didn't allow me to coz i was banned to play ice skate by my mom that time (caused by my injury the year before) and was coughing very badly till i had my asthma back..
i was very insisted coz since my 11th b'day when i tricked my mom to put me in the ice skating school on my b'day i wished that i'll celebrate my b'day playing ice skate each year.. and i did it till my 14th b'day and hv to stop since my 15th b'day..
and i still remember my mom lit up the candle on the cakes rite after we reached home from school and i keep on yelling at her even tho i was hard to breath caused by my asthma, and on that point when my mom tell that i had asthma anyway and can't go to ice skate i replied,"i had asthma and you still telling me to blow the candle, isn't it the same problem (to ice skate)?"
and after that i blowed the candle and said,"now you're happy?"
and i ran to my room and cried..
i didn't even cut my cakes..
but now i'm crying recalling this moment, coz i realize that time i might hurt my mom's heart and put her in a hard situation, while i do love her but i love ice skating too..

i love you mom.. and sorry for every hurts that i made..
i'm trying to keep myself happy but it hurts u sometimes.. i dunno wat to do..
i'm naturally selfish for this kind of stuff..
but i thank you for all of the birthday celebrations from the day i was born where dad so proud that 1 general from army came and put a flower bouquet for my birth and since then he think that i'm a special girl and i also disapoint him since i started to hv bad temper in kindergarten..
i'm trying to be better each year tho.. so hopefully i'll b more discipline and
responsible by my 21st, coz i believe that Josh will train me to b 1..

love you mom, dad..
i miss u guys even tho i dun call..
n thx for my birth even tho i hate my life but therefore i can learn about and to love

haiz.. why b'day cakes leads to sooooo many important moments in my life?..
ok.. now stop crying and i gotta continue my work..
lots pf updates coming.. so chillax..