gimme comments

so i had a problem lately.. i've been staying at josh's place for a month..
it's because of i'm not feeling comfortable at home anymore,
coz my sis is living with me and she've been always act as my parents (not only since she's in sydney)
2 years ago she can force my mom to only send me $400 for my monthly cost
and this time since i hvn't been sleeping at home for so long she stop my monthly money again

and not only that, the most annoying thing is that she dun really talk with me at home and so county in house work etc.. i dunno how to explain, basically she has a not friendly attitude that's wat i feel..
now i know why 2 years ago my host where giving me notice when i didn't talk and socializing much with her during my homestay.. IT IS DANG WEIRD IF ONLY 2 PEEPZ LIVING TOGETHER BUT NOT EVEN TALKING AND SOCIALIZING MUCH!!!
i've tried to talk very nicely but she always only reply with few words in a flat tone or offensive tone..

the worse part is that my sis did a very bad thing that i've tried to forgive but i still can't and however i'll just tell u the detail..

so, once upon a time when i juz got home they (my bro n my sis) ask me sumthin about 1 of my photo in my F*ING computer!!!! YES!! MY COMPUTER!! THEY CHECK OUT MY PHOTOS ALL OF EM!! isn't that nice? i'm sure it wasn't my bro's work, coz he never care much n dun breach people's privacy and the thing that i hate is that.. NOT EVEN MY PARENTS DO SUCH A THING BEFORE!!
after that case i've tried to b a good girl and follow what she wants but until 1 point that she did sumthin again and then i still try to be nice but not that nice anymore and she have that attitude going at home (dun really talk, live as if we're flat mates not family) and i CAN'T TAKE IT!!!
NO!!!! NNNNNN----OOOOOO!!!!!! IT'S FEELING SO WEIRD!!!!

i know she started to act not nice like that since on the holiday that i stayed at josh's place once or twice and didn't follow the rule, but seriously!!! why the hell do you think i would rebel to be allowed to go study in syd ASAP for???!! definitely coz i can't stand my strict family!
and she's giving that kind of family here in sydney??!!!! dang u!!!!

and coz since she's the 1 who pay my uni fee from now on, she won't gimme the uni fee till i:
- stay in my place
- max of 3 days staying out no matter for work or for josh
- everyday even weekend can't go home later than 12..

the thing is.. if i do so equals to:
- can't control josh going to SC
- can't see josh much coz i only can see him from around 6.30 (caused by the uni schedule)
- i dun hv much privacy!! = gotta blog very late when she's asleep
- i dun feel comfortable live with a zombie..
- etc etc.. which i also dun really clear coz my brain really tensed now..
i think it's even shrink ady!!

so yea, since i know some of you guys has younger siblings so please say sumthin,
but seriously i've been thinking to find my own way to pay my uni fee coz i dun wanna follow the stupid rules.. i didn't had my teenage time and now i wanna be free living my uni life while learning to b an adult..