6 months (21 september 08)

this time i give the plan responsibilities to josh
since he barely plan for our celebrations
and as what i heard before he has prepared something a bit exclusive for me for the 20th nite. he told me around 1 month ago that he has
confirmed that everything will goes smooth coz he tackled it all
(i won't tell the present to u guys, sorry.. coz i can't)

so, on the very day he was like so casual as if the thing is not going on
and he still go play bball, korean fest, market city etc etc.. and i was like~
"josh u really wanna cancel the plan ya?"
and however at the end he told me that he hasn't tackled it yet (T_T)
i'm so darn pissed that i trusted him for this long for every single thing
and that day was the peak of the very knowledge that he has been ignoring me and juz say yes~ yes~ and yes~
and bullshit and bullshit and another bullshit

so there i goes.. cry coz i was so darn pissed..
i've been hoping that he'll take that day very special and seriously
but he didn't and at the end i forgive him coz he said that he'll plan something for tmr and makes me happy, so on sunday 21st he say wanna go eat cheappy steak in the city @ 3pm
followed by ice cream in passionflower, and prolly watch movie if does have good movie
and then he wanna go SC..

plan is just a plan and the fact goes~~~~
he still wanna watch his drama series and play "the biggest brain" in the fb and we end up had instant noodle as lunch and not going yet @ 3
( T_T!!! ) wanna slap him rite??
so we went to city around 4 i think, and then we did get 1 steak to share in scruffy murffy's
or what ever it is called that i never remember how to spell it
and keep on calling it schuffy muffy's
T_T i know i sound idiot.. josh laughed at me enuf.. so dun laugh..

after the steak we did went for ice cream and since there are no nice movies
he decided to go to SC after that.. and the long old stories goes again..
the greedy lil kuso otoko joshie went out of the limit and kill himself in SC
and there i goes again coz i dun like the way he play i'm pissed again
isn't that such a special celebration day??? ( ~T_T~ )

so i still forgive him coz after that he's willing to accompany me watch
"my boss my hero" as what he said
since i tot at least he did 1 thing as what he has promised me..
and there he goes again only accompany me not even half of the episode and he went to the living room
to watch his hongky drama for the next 3 hours.. T_T isn't he so lovely??
where about in the world can u be so lucky to find such a bf
if not in Syd or KL??
so there i goes again darn pissed and cried coz he keep on bullshiting
for the whole 2 days of our 6 months celebration weekends..
he promised me things but he didn't do any..
what else that can hurt girls the most if not lies and bullshit?

so yea, that's our 6months celebration T_T so glamourous rite??
full of drama.. i think we can make series already..

and the only good news i have is that we had a deal for this very day that from now on he only smoke max of 4 cigs..
but he smoked 5 cigs on the 21st T_T
luckily till now he really only smoke 4 max a day..
hopefully he'll keep it up.. after few months i'll cut it again =P

so there goes my 6 months with josh~~~~