Tadaima!

Tadaima!!

i just got back from watashi tomodachi no tanjouiwai
knew few more new people..
the funny thing about this party is that
it's full of people that are looking for love and happiness..

not a good place for me
since it's a place that will makes me feel uncomfortable..
(i can't tell why coz it's weird to say it here..)
i came just for the sake of my friend and i wanted to
cheer him up since he's super sad lately
didn't work much, but at least i stated that i'm there for him.

however, today i saw quite a bit of stuff around..
and i end up knowing at the end of the day
that i have a lot and a lot of chances around.
but 'm always stuck with the thing that i like or i love.
and in some ways i dunno wat to do bout it neeway..
so i sound kinda living a pointless life..

but it's sad..
frankly, it's like seeing your favourite food in a bin.
not eaten, untouched, complete with all the decorations,
on a silver platter and cutleries

more and more
world looking as if it's more and more unfair
especially for the good doings..
usually people say good people will have a happy ending
but i really can't see any..
how can you be as strong as those legend characters in stories

or is it only in stories?
are those moral stories only like the romantic dramas around?
basically all won't happen in real life..
well even tho it's happening it won't be as sweet as in the dramas
coz obviously in real life you don't have backsound
that will enhance the feelings..

however, I'M SUCHA ...
i dunno what word to express it well..
but i feel so shit lately..
nah, not PMS guys..
it's reality..

prolly i should say that i'm so wasted..