funny itsy bitsy..

The funny itsy bitsy in me

that lil man in my body hit me way too often lately
way beyond what i've ever felt before
makes me wonder wat is actually going on

but it's weird..
gosh.. this year is super weird..

i felt that me n josh is going way better
but yet.. my loving feeling is not the same as what i had before..
not that it's gone, but it's a different feeling

it makes me worry in a way..
coz i dunno wats going on..

but oh well.. here we are.. such a lovey dovey..
i can understand his body languages better..
he become calmer..
i become much cooler..
we had less drama than ever before..

usually he'll be tempered when he sleep
and i moved here n there..
now, he is sooooooo much less tempered..
talk sweetly bout my behaviour..
or juz asked me to come n get into his hug to stop me from
moving around or making noises by doing watever i could do in the room
while waiting for him to wake up from his nap..

these kinda small daily things..
really change the relationship when it changed..

i missed the dramatic days between us tho!! =P
when we used to argue so much..
mad at each other..
coz when we're argueing face to face and long distance is different u know..
argueing face to face can make us opened to each other..
n i like it in some ways sometimes.. =P

especially if we ended it with picking on each other..
or pillow fight.. or walking to no where..

talking bout walking to no where..
i kinda reducing this thing.. i juz notice it today..
i walked further from him, but not too far..
n he used to it already XD LOLZ..

gosh.. 3 more weeks.. n we'll become 1 year..
i'll be 21..
confused bout being in love with this messed up ugly smoker guy
with all his bad habits.. in ah beng style..

seing no future with this guy but yet still goin on..
thinking bout my life n ticking clock..
yet still being as stupid as a lil kid on my 21st..
but all these only get me feeling deeper and deeper in this relationship

omg.. finally another story bout monkey n me..
u happy now terry???
i bet u're smilin thinking dat we works like wat u think we would..
juz pray for my best people..

and i wanna admit my sin to josh..
i threw 2 boxes of ur lucky strike today XD
ow, talking bout cig.. terry.. he didn't bring the 10cigs box
so.. don't expect him to change much..