our changes

i was suppose to put pictures showing how different josh n me been changing
but oh well, i juz found out that after my sis check my photos
i deleted all photos that hv josh in it.
and all of the photos are in josh's lappy that the hard disc got problem T_T
hopefully the hard disc can be retrieved.

however, not much photos here but i think this is enough.

started from:

he's still plain n fake, n i'm praising him
(he hold my waist but no hug from him)

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i gave him an expensive present + love candy
+ love letter, all in a romantic way for 1 month

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still i'm the one that is excited
and he still annoyed by me sometimes
around the point that i knew his bad history,
yet i'm still praising him

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care bout me even more n wanna makes me happy,
see the hug?? tighter than ever!!
yet still feel kinda forced to do so
he had hobby since around this time to capture my emotions
daily using his camera phone.

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he wanted to hv pictures with me,
if u notice, big smiles come in this photo (compared to ones on top)
other collections that we have big smiles
only found in "acting stupid" photos in lappy cam

in the other hand i'm not as smiley as before,
because lies started to come,
confusions came, it was hard time.

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after that, there r some bits n pieces of his changes
and i'm super happy bout it all

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and the last few months he started to think about us,
bout wat he wanna do with me,
bout future plan, and questions of "what if?" in his head
the last week in syd before he left to msia,
he wanna go here n there with me,


see the hugs?? so different..as if he dun wanna let me go.
yet in the other way around i'm the one whom
looking more independent n as if dun care bout him

he was tired on that ice skating day,
yet he still wanna makes me happy and not like the one b4
this one his face looking happy too
dat day wasn't a perfect day, but there u can see his changes,
he was a person that once the day bad his mood
gonna b bad the whole day
but since he saw me crying for 2 days coz of his treatment
he try to make me happy again.

and he gave me a present that day (our 8months celebration)

it was a frame that i showed him n say it's cool..
complete with our perfect picture in it.
it was soooo touching for me.

the picture in the frame
can u see that this is the real couple picture?
a happy couple it is..

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but now, he failed me again, i don't know what to say
but i've been always and will always happy to know that
this guy loves me at the end, however not that much yet
but at least he did n i did change someone.

love you always,
and i did dedicate all my dances to you.