time to talk bout the dark side..

well, some1 said that my blog is too lovey dovey, now i'll show him how dark is my life in the other side ^^

well, i dunno where to start, since the stories r too long but juz consider i'm a weird person that juz saying points about bitter tastes that i feel (especially) lately.. there r the things that can piss me off like crazy..

so the background is i'm the youngest child of 3 and i got 1 elder sis n 1 elder bro, my sis is 9 years old older than me n my bro is 6 years old older.
my family is a very strict family, well quite a bit of families like this all around asia i know, but the thing is that it really doesn't suits me who is very adventurous, rebellious, not even afraid of things, cold hearted (in some ways), n etc.

the lastest news are...

1. my sis suspicious of a letter that she coincidently found when i ask her to help me find my TFN letter and end up checking about that letter behind me (i dunno when)
   and i think while she's checking she prolly found my photo with my ex in the same place where i put my letters too
   -the letter is a letter of confirmation of free photo shooting appointment -
   and then this leads to..
2. my bro n sis check every single latest photos that i have in my computer
   and this leads to..
   
3. they saw a nude girl on photo shooting from further that josh took (that girl was taking photo with me on the same day) and they thought that it was me.
   leads to..
   
4. they saw all of my photos of my activities with my friends and josh.
   (i don't really tell em about josh coz i consider our relationship is not that stabil yet and i'm type of person that don't want my family know bout my bf if the relationship is not very serious yet coz i don't want to have any cnflict or watsoever and since both of my relationships are very complicated i don't wanna get bother to talk about each of it)
   and leads to..
5. they tell my mom that i got a bf..
   (i consider this as they don't respect my way of living and my decisions)
   i end up telling my mom bout him juz now, coz i actually also been wanting to tell my mom bout my bf..
   
6. today my bro basically ask me to introduce him all of my friends that i mostly hang around with since my sis consider that my friends are bad people..
   (if u find this thing is normal then i can say nothing)
7. at home my sis treatin me like a stranger, she don't even wanna wash my dishes even tho we were having dinner or lunch together, and do all of these such a thing around kitchen, while even at josh's place friends or me, wouldn't even matter if we ask each other to help to wash dishes.
   well the craziest part is few days ago is when i cooked curry, i didn't do much that day coz i wanna cook curry for her n for me to practice cooking, and after cooking i hv to rush to go for movie with josh n friends. before cooking i went around josh's place to buy some ingredients to cook, n then juz spent time with josh first co if i go home n cook then wouldn't hv time at all to c josh, so after seein josh i made my self go home just to cook for my sis, n then i go to movie rite after i finish cooking and only eating very tiny bit. since the curry doesn't taste good so i said tthat i'll try to fix it tmr, n then after movie i go to sleep straight away, n the next morning i go with josh again from early in the morning, n that nite i find out that she didn't even touch the curry to put it into the fridge, coz she think that it's my job to do so.. n i dun even feel like doing anything towards it till today, coz it's a bit too much for me..
   things like these happens all the time..
8. luckily the next news is better.. i forgot wat else is happening.. XD coz i'm so pissed already..

there r still quite a bit of crazy stuff happens on the past but lets juz see the present n forget about the past..
hopefully this post refresh your mood in readin this lovey dovey blog a bit..
coz we got bitter things here now..